Give Me That Outcome

Have you ever lived from day to day basis but fearing that there’s no real outcome? Well I’m living that nightmare right now. What am I really doing here? Why can't I just pack it up and go back home? This place isn’t for me. At least that’s what I thought last semester.

So what changed it?

Maybe it’s the fact that this semester I have actually found people to bond with; someone who understands that sometimes I want to be alone and sometimes I don’t want to be left out of the loop. I found people who understand that I'm awkwardly different and freaky all the time because no one last year seemed to but MOST IMPORTANTLY people whom I can communicate with.

Oh GAWD! It feels good to let everything out without them looking at me like I’m some sort of bitch that would like to show off my speaking skills and they don’t just look at me like some sort of rock they mistaken for a cracked filled parrot!

I’m not the type of person that would be categorised as ‘friendly’ but I’m not ‘shy’ either; or even so to speak. I hate making new friends especially if they’re not opened to new things and cultures.

How many cracked headed girls you meet that wants to live with their best friend forever and prevent them from getting married?

Well apparently two in the house.

So anyway, back to my dilemma; I can't believe when the going gets good ‘The Man’ comes and put a stop to it when I’m already half way through! How can ‘The Man’ do this?! I’m flabbergasted!! When you complain to a higher power they treat you like two old day newspaper. Useless and only important when you need researched.

I wrote a heartfelt letter and you don’t even bother to do anything about it? I even handed it to you personally but you put it aside like wasted food. The children of Africa would have a full belly by now if that letter was food which was made with much love and consideration I tell you.

How am I going to complain? No one will listen. I wished they would. But hey, to their eyes I’m an inexperienced, incompetent, unknowledgeable, disrespectful and annoying child just doing everything for attention.

YES! I admit it! I do seek attention but not for the reason you think it is. It is only so you would listen to my side of the story! Definitely face to face is better; you can see my BIG BIG EYES expression which I will admit will put any cute animals to shame!

Unfortunately babies are much cuter on the Cuteness Richter Scale compared to my Big Big Eyes facial expression.

Forget about babies for a moment and continue worrying about the actions coming 'The Man'. Hey, I've heard complains everywhere but you don't see me talking about you that way but actually I want to talk about how heinous you really are 'The Man'.

I'm being hideous and horrendous to myself and I should really stop that!

So I have to go now! Dr. Nik will kill me for opening my laptop during lecture! DIE!!

Later homies!