Judgement Day

Today I took my exam result and got the shock of my life. I'm only going to tell you at the end of the post, so keep on reading. So the government announced that 7th March would be the day our results were given; hence the tittle. It was a real shock even when we can't wait to get it over with. It was an experience I wont forget.

Announcement Of Date

I was expecting it but I still feared it. I told myself just to stay calm and that's what I did and busied myself at the greenery. There's nothing to worry about because it was two weeks away. Oddly I slept fine that week even though I knew I was going to die in a week, but I thank God for keeping me calm.

 A Week Before Judgement Day

I was nervous so I calmed myself by thinking that if I don't see the words 'STPM' I'll be fine. So I ignored every social network. To make myself feel even more better I posted something very ridiculous that I'm really ashamed of posting. I asked the Lord for calmness and thankfully he gave it to me.

Two Days To Judgement Day

I had fully convince that I had failed my exams and there's no chance anymore. Yes, I actually convinced myself that; idiotic, I know. But I also asked the Lord for calmness.

Judgement Day

The night before The Day I asked the Lord for calmness and he gave it to me. I woke up and felt nothing; it's a bad sign if I feel nothing because I know that my results would be bad (I've had experience) so I started my morning ritual as usual. Vera picked me up from my home and we made our way to Vicky's. We had morning coffee and just talked in a cafe until the time has come. Aunty (Vera's mum) was calming us down when we noticed it was already 12 p.m. My heart was beating so fast and I had the urge to vomit, I was starting to get nervous. Once we reached school my palms were sweaty and I had every urge to just run.

We were greeted by familiar faces in the school (and boys howling) and one of them were Cikgu Azman. He came up to us and greeted us telling us congratulations because we passed Sejarah! Yeay! So he had to keep his promise to us (he made a deal with the whole class is Sejarah gets 100% pass). 

When it was time to hand our slip I was so nervous I thought I was going to throw up. 

My turn came, so I sat down and waited. When she announced that I manage to get an A i was wondering what subject it was. It was the most nerve wracking moment ever! When the teacher finally handed me the slip the first thing I looked for was the A.

Shocked But Happy

My A was my weakest subject! I manage to get an A for my Arts! Oh my gosh!!!!! I was literally jumping for joy and trying to breathe. I was on the verge of crying (I did at one point) so I called my mum to let her know the news(which she responded so mildly) then (My dad didn't picked up his phone) called my art teacher Puan Zarrina but she didnt picked up, huh how sad. So I hugged my friends and congratulated each other when my art teacher called yeay! I was so happy my words just jumbled up in my mouth!

All I can say about this chapter of my life is that all you need in life to succeed is hard work, determination, beliefs and prayer.

Until I blog again! (Which is probably after convocation. Kyaaa!!!)