I had weirder days..

Since it's a one day holiday and all (its only one day for my school. How unfair is that??) I decided to lay back 'n' just be mellow after a tiring day of walking yesterday. When I started to relax my mind suddenly had a rush of attacks! I was thinking about a million of things at once! But on top of my mind was these things:

1. My future..
2. My friends..
3. How much time I have left.
4. What am I going to do?
5. Sylvia

My future
You see I'm a senior student at my high school,although I don't look like one (I'm quite short..) and I have this major exam on November and this exam determine if I get into college or not. I'm the kind of person that does everything last minute,but I really want to get into a really good college but I hate studying. I know I have to study for the exam but I absolutely HATE it. Since a lot of people have been supporting me ( It's ironic because they know I don't study) I decided to turn their hopes into a reality or at least try..

My friends
I know this sounds crazy but I'm actually going to miss my friends when my exams are over. I'm going to miss their wackiness.. Its so hard to make new friends, I wish I could just put them in my backpack and carry them with me where ever I go. They'll be my portable friends in a backpack.. Ha ha.. But seriously I'm really going to miss them. After this exam we'll all go our separate ways. No more crazy time making fun and chasing each other. This is so upsetting.

How much time I have left
How much time do I really have to live? 40 more years? 50? Who would actually know. But when you think about life it's kind of really short. So I was thinking I'm going to enjoy it to the fullest right now! When I'm still young and still a teenager! I mean after all this I'll be an adult worrying about life and always working. Now that's no fun is it?

What am I going to do?
I really don't know what am I going to do after the exam. I don't even know what my career option is. All I know is that I'm going to get a part time job after the exam. Everything is just so confusing.

Sylvia
Sylvia is this 15 year old kid with a brain of a 30 year old. I bold her name because I never actually think of her until now. Sylvia a my junior of 2 years, we're both in the Drama Club. I had always watch her from far (I'm not a stalker!) if you look at her she looks tough and scary but if you get to know her she is such a sweet girl. But the thing is that she usually hides her feelings. Maybe nobody notices it, but this girl has a lot a of bottled feelings. I wonder how this kid express herself. Sylvia is fun but when she express herself in confide you actually feel her pain and you just want to cry for her. I just hope she doesn't bottle up her feelings too much,I'm afraid she might just explode.

My life now is just so complicated. I wish it could be easier.